The child - who convinces you that it is ok to eat all those lovely foods you dream of and tells you how much you deserve it, it wont hurt you go on!!
The Critic - tells you how awful you have been when you over eat, gain weight, you will remain lonely and fat
What we need to realize is that during this process of relearning both of the instances above will appear. This weekend for me was a prime example of just that. I had 2 birthday parties one on saturday and one on sunday, the saturday one I was eating chips and dip - they were yummy (now I knew I shouldn't do this but I would definitely not eat the pizza), however the parents ordered a lot of pizza - I felt guilty I was not eating so i ate a slice. I felt bad I hated myself for letting myself down - what a disappointment I am to myself all my hard work. Well I wanted to do better on the sunday party! I have so much determination but around food I can crumble on the sunday I decided to just eat the one slice of pizza and that is what i did. No cake no snacks no alcohol. So although I ate something hardly good for you I negotiated with myself that slice of pizza was my lunch and I had nothing else!
I am no hero, at times I am a bit of a failure but I always know there is room for improvement!! I am trying very hard and know the decisions at the birthday parties will also become easier to resist without that "guilt" feeling
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