Monday May 31st - Getting Engaged!

So Laura has been talking about "getting engaged" for todays 5 minute thoughtDAY 19 - Get Engaged in What You're Doing (Five Seconds)Have you ever noticed that you don't tend to get hungry when you're busy, and then, when you start thinking about food, suddenly you want it? There's a fundamental relationship between thinking about food and eating. When we're craving food even when we aren't hungry, it's likely that we're bored or trying to avoid something we don't want to do. We're probably looking for a way to distract ourselves from the resistance we're feeling and the negative, or stressful, thoughts that go along with that. These thoughts create uncomfortable feelings and rather than sit with these feelings until they dissipate, we often head to the refrigerator to try change our experience. Yet, when something happens that needs our immediate attention, food is the farthest thing from our mind. If our house is on fire, trust me, you won't be thinking about eating the leftover pizza.

This is exactly what I was doing this morning, I have been tidying up the house (isnt it amazing how trashed it becomes when you are not there to pick up and tidy after everyone) and I had banana's go brown so i made banana muffins for breakfast.

I certainly havent thought about food at all, I have thought about lying down as I am exhausted but the tidying keeps me going - nearly done.

Today has been a hard day as I wrestle with my clothes trying to find something to fit, unfortunately a sad reality of my winter eating habits. I know sitting crying doesn't help but I feel so frustrated at times and so utterly disappointed in my self, I have been unhappy for so long now I hardly remember a day when I just enjoyed myself and my size is a result of all those issues in my head. I really hope next summer I am not dealing with the same demons, I am done already!!

Diversion for me is a great way of keeping me away from food and staying out the house or working are ways of doing that!!

Happy Mermorial day - go do something engaging